April is another challenge

The month of march has been the hardest month.
despite all the happy birthday celebrations.
the sadness conquer my inner self.
March was all about past memories..


However, i managed to be independence.
Learnt to stand on my own.
Love my self more and importantly,
i managed to put back again a smile on my face.
Its not full pure happiness but at least
Its a smile. not fake.


I was really looking forward for April.
I hope life would be better and less painful.
But Allah loves me.

As i was about to crawl back up in life..
Again, life hits me on the head.
DANGGGG!!

I lost my auntie on Tuesday at 4.45pm.
Sabariah Binti An.
My mom's late sister.

I was odw home frm collage to visit her at hospital after knowing her critical condition. However, Allah prevented me from seeing her.

I felt her lost. Yes i do.
I lost my aunt...
No word could describe how i feels.

I said nothing, only tears rolling down my cheeks.
Thats all.. Thats how sad i felt..



LIFE IS NOT EASY.

It could help you be back on track.
sometimes it hits you.
sometimes youre on the top.



Now, im on the bottom.
after being hit multiple times.


I lost my cousin last year before raya.
I 'lost' a bestfriend last feb.
I lost my auntie on 12 April.
 But, i believed, HE loves me.