One week

Without you.
It wasnt a great week.
Not at all. I felt empty.

Faking is very hard, harder than i thought.
To keep silence and not saying a word abt how i feel is hard.
I want to say how i feel, everything to you.
But you never asked..
Dont you even think abt how i felt?

Hurm, im still in shocked..
I just cant bare it anymore..
I'll cry when even i want to. even in public.
I just cant bare it anymore...

Im used of having you..
Do you know how it felt?
When another half of you is missing?
When all the promises u made, disappeared?
When your heart is against the life?

I want to hold you back but i knew..
It wont change a thing.
Now, its about time..
I need to be strong.
Strong enough to face the truth..
and mature enough to handle the truth.

Let the past be the past.
You can do this.
Keep aside your feeling and focus on something else.

I must, no looking back.