May I do them again?

If only i can go to you,ask to lend on your back
and cry on your shoulder like i used to..

If only i can move my fingers, grab my phone
and call you whenever i feel need of someone..

If only when i am very happy or very sad, i can turn to the side
and i can look at you as you used to be there..

If only i could walk my legs, drive my car
and go to see you whenever i want like i used to..

If only i can take the menu, order anything fatty
and eat them so happily in front of you..

If only i can turn on the radio, pick our favourite songs
and sing along in the car like we used to..

If only i can dress in my pyjamas, make my hair undone
and simply skype with you late night.

If only i can go to the guys section in stores, browse mens clothes
and imagine you're wearing them if i bought it for you.

If only i can forget to wear sweater, go to a cinema
and have you to warm me up.

If only i can open my mouth, look into your eyes
and just say whatever is inside my heart like i used to.

i need you the most now.
i cant bare it anymore.
i dont want to pretend anymore,please.. release my fear. :(