Only if you know

Hmm,im not in a good mood, again.
Im not happy. Even after a trip to PD last thurday.
there is something missing in my life.
That is you.

There are things i wanted to say to you...
But..i cant bcs some things are better left unsaid.
Is it true? But if its about how i felt? Should i keep it by myself?
or should i express it to you?

My regret, my thoughts and my curiosity..hmm
I cant even stand a day without you..
But you asked me to keep strong and move on.
That is the only thing that i cant do.
Move on is easy said than done.

Hmm,yes..i could see that you're moving on.
Oh yes i could see that..and everytime i realised that fact..
I'll be upset and just cry non stop... :'((
only if you knew you are still very important in my life.

I feel lost without you.
My day is not complete without hearing from you.
My mood is down when you not around.
My face is pethatic when im very sad and knew youre doing well.

* You dont feel my lost bcs you have someone else close by your side who always be there with you through your up and down where i cant because i dont understand and you threw me away. Unlike me, u were with me through everything,thats why i feel your lost the most. and you were and still someone close to my heart.

I just hope one day, you realised that all the things that we have been through together are wonderful and i need you the most. Not being immature or  not independence, but its true, I NEED YOU.